mum asked me last night if bryan still calls me or find me..i said no..he doesn't call me anymore and we seldom talk..i felt a wave of sadness when i talk about him..thus i miss him so much today...the memories keep coming back...i dunno is it me or what..so many things i do today links to him..*sigh* saw the disney on ice "Beauty & the Beast" advertisement on tv today..i felt so sad...it was in singapore when i went back the last trip and he was planning to take me there to watch it together, cos he knows i love "Beauty and the Beast" a lot. it was in march..and i had to come back to aussie so we didn't get to watch it together. i was watching tv in my sister's room today and i thought of us. we used to cuddle each other while watching tv or vcds at my house. was talking to hippo today and he was talking about if he has a gf he would rather spend time at home with his gf..watching vcds,cook etc etc. bryan and i spent so much time at home, our memories mostly come from my house,maybe that's why i'm missing him so much now.

i sms-ed him this afternoon but he didn't reply.yeah..i'm disappointed...i just dunno why don't we talk anymore...i hope i can still talk to him like how we used to..he was always there for me..listening to my problems and sadness,though he doesn't noe how to comfort me.he was always supporting me.i felt so connected to him...he can feel if i'm sad or happy even when i dun mention anything.i have never felt so close to anyone before..now i can't even talk to him as a friend anymore..my heart aches..aches so badly my tears can't stop rolling for a while..sometimes i really wish we can try again...wish that we can love each other again..but i know i'm wishing for something that won't come true anymore. i am moving on..but not as fast as i thought i would. missing someone u loved so dearly is unavoidable....he will always have a place in my heart...always will...in the past,present and future.though we don't really talk anymore, i hope he's doing fine.i hope he's still taking good care of himself,still smiling everyday so that girls can fall in love with his smile that makes him look so cute. he certainly deserve someone better than me..someone who can be by his side always..making him happy and not someone who is like a hundred thousand miles away from him. it's just too torturing for him. he deserves a better first love. Other girls can now know how great a boyfriend he is and treasure him better. 1st july..time flies..we broke up for a month already. i really wish him all the best..=)

okay, i better move on to other things before i start crying again. mum suggested to me last week about studying real estate since i'm doing nothing now. good suggestion! it's just 4 weeks and i will have a licence of a real estate agent. ^.^ since my uncle would be opening his own real estate company in the next few years, i can work there too. cool shit. but it all comes down to money matters. $700+. but i find it really a good suggestion. i wan to study...anything would be fine! i wan something to do rather than rotting at home everyday. work work work!!! gotta go to Auntie Cindy's tomorrow to cut my hair since it's getting long and out of shape and then maybe dye my hair on friday..the girls are coming back tomorrow unless they extend their trip.oh the pics i said i would upload..errr..my infrared is giving me problems..i try again tomorrow..soccer tonight..portugal vs holland. portugal will sure win but i'm gonna support holland cos my ruud van nistelrooy is in that team..if he's not playing..then i will go for portugal.^.^ ok i gotta go now..gunbound is down so i decided to entertain myself with a new game "Survival Project" for the time being..see u guys..*muackz*

Tear drop 7/01/2004 12:46:00 am of Eunice