["I was really scared for a while and didn't believe what he was trying to do. That probably gave him an advantage because I was so slow to react to what was happening, and when it was happening I couldn't do anything to stop it. I remember thinking that he couldn't be THAT strong but I couldn't do anything to stop him. I kept thinking that this is not how I want to lose my virginity. All the time when I was trying to get him off me, I kept saying to myself that this can't happen because it is not supposed to happen."]
[it was years before she told anyone about her date rape. Years during which she had major self-confidence issues and problems with her relationships. "I think the biggest mistake I made was in not talking about it with someone as soon as it happened," said May (a pseudonym) in an email interview. "I was extremely ashamed of myself and I was sure no one would take me seriously especially since I was at his house when it happened.]
[All sorts of weird thoughts were in my head for days after the incident and then I finally decided that I wasn't going to do anything about it. So I tried to put it behind me and live a normal life as much as I could. But it never ever felt normal again. For years I had lots of problems with boyfriends. I had a lot of issues with my self-confidence and always found it easy to blame myself for things that went wrong in relationships. I even stuck it out with a boyfriend who was very possessive and verbally abusive because I felt like I owed it to myself to make it right and not have another failure."]
all these quotes says it all...when i read the article..i could totally understand and feel for her..tears welled up in my eyes.As they say,only the people who experienced the same sort of things would understand.it's been a year plus and i still can't get it off my mind.At times, i would just sit somewhere silently,thinking back on what happened.maybe i deserved all those things that had happened to me..maybe this is my lifetime punishment for doing something wrong my past life...nightmares that will haunt me forever..why was i so stupid and naive back then...
Tear drop 12/20/2004 02:18:00 am of Eunice
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[name] eunice ng[gender] female [d.o.b] 11.o9.1985 [status] single [horoscope] virgo [location] western australia [suburb] winthrop [loves] stars,sunsets,sunrises,oceans,windchimes,waves [music] trance,techno,fish leong,david tao,stephanie sun,evonne hsu [quote] Every Ending Is A New Beginning - RESOLUTIONS -
[-] Studies is PRIORITY ONE.[-] To study hard and pass all units. [-] To lose 5kg in 6 months. [-] To make the people around me smile and happy. [-] To save more money to go back singapore [-] To be a stronger and happier person. [-] To move on from the past and forget unhappy times. [-] To build a better friendship with my friends. -Notations -
[o5.o1] dad's birthday[16.o1] sis's birthday [22.o1] doris's birthday [23.o1] marshal/marlon birthday [o4.o2] liting's birthday [18.o2] roger's birthday [19.o2] ah cute's birthday [25.o2] meiyun/jac/weiliang [27.o2] lynette's birthday [28.o2] school starts! [13.o3] glenn's birthday [14.o3] auntie jas birthday [23.o3] zhenyi's birthday [3o.o3] shihui's birthday [o4.o4] mingli's birthday [14.o4] ivan's birthday [18.o4] dennis's birthday [13.o5] derrick's birthday [21.o6] jason/ariel birthday [o1.o7] cardin's birthday [o4.o7] bennie's birthday [18.o7] debbie's birthday [20.o7] sheila's birthday [28.o7] trek's birthday [3o.o7] nick's birthday [31.o7] yvonne's birthday [o4.o8] norton/gaston birthday [o9.o8] david/muhai birthday [1o.o8] bird's birthday [11.o8] von's birthday [12.o8] aunt.grace bday [2o.o8] suey's birthday [o2.o9] brother's bday [o4.o9] melf's birthday [o5.o9] felicia's birthday [o7.o9] joycelyn/melcolm bday [11.o9] my birthday! [18.o9] jiaming bday [29.o9] xueni's bday [3o.o9] sherwin's birthday [1o.1o] theresa's birthday [21.1o] steph's birthday [27.1o] huiting's birthday [28.1o] wilson (hippo) birthday [o7.11] shaun's birthday [o9.11] bryan's birthday [26.11] linz's birthday [o2.12] leon's birthday [11.12] hanxiang's birthday [12.12] opiomorph's birthday [17.12] mum's birthday [19.12] jerry's birthday [23.12] bell's birthday [25.12] x'mas day [30.12] kaimin's birthday [31.12] new year's eve - The Tears -
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Monday, December 20, 2004
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