I received a message on msn yesterday which really tore me apart.Nick's brother messaged me on msn and told me Nick passed away.I didn't wanna believe,I thought he was just kidding me. But i got worried.Nick passed away 4 days ago due to some sickness. He has had it for quite some time already but he never told me, he never told anyone. It's all so sudden. I just talked to him last friday and he insisted on leaving me,giving me stupid reasons and telling me he has his own reasons of doing this.So I respect his decision and let him go.I remember being very angry at him, I hung up on him and didn't want to talk to him anymore.But just a few days later,he's gone.G-O-N-E forever.I called his mobile several times but nobody answered or it was off. I can't make a trip down to malaysia now either.I will never get to hear his voice again,never get to hear him sing to me again.Why didn't he just tell me he's sick that night? Why did he have to give me so many stupid reasons? Why didn't i realise that he has been sick for so long? Why did i hang up on him? I kept calling and wished he would just answer his phone,telling me that he's playing a prank on me.He used to make me panic and worry for him,just for the fun of it.But now i wish he really is playing.I dunno what to say.It all just happened so suddenly.All the webcam memories and conversations we had all juz came flowing back,I kept listening to the songs we shared,fighting back my tears trying to smile and live normally cos I know he wouldn't want me to be sad for him.I must be strong,I cannot cry.But i miss him dearly...he was my best friend,my good friend.He taught me how to be understanding girlfriend to guys and taught me how to compromise in a relationship.But why did he have to go? He was such a talented young man,he was a chinese doctor who has always put his work first before everything.He's always thinking of ways to build a better life in future for himself.He even thought of going to UK in future years when his business is stable.And he's suppose to come and visit me in 3 months time.He still got so many things he hasn't done yet,how can he just leave like that..I will always remember him,always have him in my heart and i wish i can tell him "I love you" now...miss you Nick..I will be strong..May You Rest In Peace. You will always be remembered by everyone.


Remember Me This Way Lyrics from Jordan Hill

Every now and then
We find a special friend
who never lets us down...

Who understands it all
reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay
a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
if you lose your way,
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where I go
and I know that you'll be there
forever-more a part of me and everywhere
I'll always care.....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true,
if life will just be kind,
to such a gentle mind,
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way,
remember me this way.

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you
I'll be standing by your side, all you do
and I won't ever leave
as long as you believe,
you just believe....

I'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
if life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind
and if you lose your way
think back on yesturday
remember me this way
remember me this way.
o.....
this way.

Tear drop 2/05/2005 01:03:00 pm of Eunice